Remembrances of Baba Ghosh

Baba - one whom I adored and feared the most. I remember when I was a child I always used to escape to Dida , when Baba was looking for me .. maybe I had done my homework.. or something like that.

During my higher studies, Baba always used to accompany me with the study materials and he was very instrumental in various phases of my life.

Even when I started working, Baba used to take daily reports from me, what I have done.... if I used to say the same thing again , next day he would say me ..."Eta to kalkeo korechis, aajke natun ki korli tahole" and scold me. As Baba had come to know something by interacting with me everytime, he also questioned me about various aspects in software engineering.

I never used to take care of my planning .... I knew Baba would do it for me.

I last spoke with Baba, when I was in Mumbai... before FIFA World Cup 2006 on the phone .. it was regarding the inagural match ... Germany vs Costa Rica .

I was telling Baba, I shall stay awake and watch the match ... and I remember Baba saying to me, in a taunting voice .... "Tui janish Costa Rica kothai .. oder match dekhar jonyo tui raat jagbije". .... little did I know that time that this would be my last conversation with Baba.

I got a call from my home at Kolkata after a couple of days, that Baba is not well . Ritu also told me I better go to Calcutta.... she could comprehend it.

I hastily went back to Kolkata to see Baba in a state of coma .. he had suddenly suffered from cerebral haemorrhage.... the same state continued for the next 5 days .

Within the 5 days I saw Baba's hand coming up and down and was very happy and told it to Ma.On listening Ma turned very happy too.... "Tahole bol Baba fire ashte pare"... we were so happy... But Sejokaku told otherwise, he said this is happening because of pain.

21st June 2006 - It happened to be my birthday . Our phone rang around 7:10 am ..... Ma received the phone and called Sakakaka. I hastily woke up and took up the receiver ... the caller on the other side said something which I still have to live with .

Baba HAD LEFT for the heavenly abode.

........
And I'm underneath the streetlight
But the light of joy I know
Scared beyond belief way down in the shadows
And the perverted fear of violence
Chokes the smile on every face
And common sense is ringing out the bell
This ain't no technological breakdown
Oh no, this is the road to hell

And all the roads jam up with credit
And there's nothing you can do
It's all just pieces of paper flying away from you
Oh look out world, take a good look
What comes down here
You must learn this lesson fast and learn it well
This ain't no upwardly mobile freeway
...... Chris Rea - Road To Hell ( Part II )

Where have all the flowers gone - long time ago

Timmi , my sister was always an inspiration for me. I remember all those days when we used to share over small things and sometimes quarrell on them also. She always wished I would become better in my life .... always was there by my side when I was down..

Timmi left us on 6th March 1998 .... and lots of new things have been added and subtracted from our lives.

I have moved to Bangalore, working on a better job, got married, have a daughter Sonamoni, ... Ma is also with us ... Baba has left us on 21st June 2006 .

After Timmi , Dida, Pisimoni, Kakumoni and Baba has also left us ... but life still continues .

Lives of all great men remind us,
We can make our lives sublime .....
And walking leave behind us,
Footprints in the Sands of Time
--- H.W.Longfellow

A void of emptiness

Sonamoni's going away to Kolkata has left an emptiness in our room.

Really miss the moments when Sonamoni is with us . Ma and me are missing her every moment.

She shall be back on 9th July 2088.. looking forward for that day.

Get yourself a second life

Sometimes when we are getting bored in our work or need a break from
the family chores .... getting a second life is amazingly refreshing .

Thats what the digital networking comes in. After SecondLife's succes there have been various Web 2.0 applications that have come up ... some of them are right now free .. like Minilife .

Others worthly of mention are Vivaty, Yahoo Mash, Google has something in its sleeve also.

Hey there is one more... VSide .... it calls itself the 3D side of Facebook.

Life is amazing .... or rather technology is making life amazing.

Wish you were here ALLWAYS

21st June 2008

Two years have passed since Daddy Ghosh has left us .... he was such a inspiration for me. To me HE is always with us in some way or the other. Many things have changed after his passing away, I have come to Bangalore, Sonamoni, Ritu and Ma is with us, I have received a hike this month....... yesterday Ritu had bought a pair of jeans and tops ... tomar "ekdom baccha meyer moto lagche" .. ONLY YOU ARE NOT WITH US.

In the morning I prayed in front of Baba's photograph for sometime , gave him a floral garland, sweets and that was all I did. Then I went to a seminar and came back home later in the afternoon.

Ma was as usual , ... .. she never expresses herself . But obviously remembrances are there with her ..... and it will be there with her forever.

Rangapisi had called me up and I had informed her, what have I done.

It also happened to be my birthday.

Baba you shall be with me always and forever.

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Pink Flyod - Wish You Were Here

Of crests and troughs

Nothing works for the better. Sometimes efforts to better rebound to yourself and you stand alone. This has happened with me in P ....Don't know what to say in this front ... maybe this is the way of life here

Building up our home

This Saturday, we bought a new automatic washing machine .... we are taking steps to build up our new home

Sonamoni turns 1.5 years

Yesterday Sonamoni turned 1year 5months old .... from the 13day old babe she is now 1.5 years old.

She has come up a long way.

All in a day's work

Unfortunately our maid has not turned back after her leave ; so we are in pursuit of another maid servant. After work it becomes very difficult for Ritu to do all the household chores - its getting very hectic for her.

Sonamoni now keeps Ma busy all the time with her untimely pranks - in fact she keeps all of us busy.

Everyday I return from office , Sonamoni greets me with her smile ... it makes me feel fresh again.

If Ritu's time permits we have a small chat over a cup of tea, and then I start playing with Sonamoni .

Sonamonis dinner is an episode in itself ; while she shows her tantrums by moving away from the plate and not willing to eat .

While Ritu makes her dinner, Ma is at the helm of helping her eat it. Nowadays I have also joined the league ; I draw her sketches on a diary and correlating them whats there in the book .. this tactic helps us to make her have her dinner .


Her favorite sketch happens to be MyaoPussy ( cat ) ... see above ... sometimes I draw three of them of several sizes and call them Ma, Baba and Sonamoni myaopussy

The Missing Frame

It has been more than a decade when Timmi left us ( 6th March 1998 ).

There has been many incidents after the date; passing away of Baba (21st June 2006 ), coming of Sonamoni ( 1st December 2006 ), passing away of my mother in law ( 22nd October 2007 ) ; I was fortunate to share some of my ups with my parents, Ritu and our family .

I have moved to Bangalore with a better job. I have got married and have a kid - both of them are very supportive in their own ways. There are somethings Timmi wanted me to become - I hope I have met some of the expectations of her and my parents.

Ma has come to Bangalore and is presently staying with us . She spends her time playing with Sonamoni and is in a better condition than what she was earlier. It has been around two months Ma is staying with us ; but Baba's coming remain unfulfilled .

As everyone of us get busy with our day to day activities , we just find sometime to look back .

Forward troubles Illinois, lock the front door, oh boy!
Look at all the happy creatures dancing on the lawn.
Bother me tomorrow, today, I'll buy no sorrows.

Doo, doo, doo, Looking out my back door.
There's a giant doing cartwheels,
A statue wearing high heels.
Look at all the happy creatures dancing on the lawn.
A dinosaur Victrola listening to Buck Owens......

Credence Clearwater Revival - Looking Out My Back Door